Delirium

I'll tell you another secret, this one for your own good. You may think the past has something to tell you. You may think that you should listen, should strain to make out it's whispers, should bend over backward, stoop down low to hear it's voice breathed up from the ground, from the dead places.you may think there's something in it for you, something to understand or make sense of.

But I know the truth: I know from the nights of Coldness. I know the past will drag you backward and down, have you snatching at whispers of wind and the gibberish of trees rubbing together, trying to decipher some code, trying to piece together what was broken. It's hopeless. The past is nothing but a weight. It will build inside of you like a stone.

Take it from me: If you hear the past speaking to you, feel it tugging at your back and running its fingertips up your spine, the best thing to do - the only thing - is run.

Berapa lama lagi Ya Allah aku menahan rasa ini? Rasa sakit ini?
Berapa lama lagi aku bertahan, berjuang demi kebahagiaanku sendiri...
Berapa lama lagi aku mencoba mengerti, mengalah kepada keadaan, menerima kondisinya...
Berapa lama lagi aku diuji untuk naik satu level menjadi hambaMu yang sabar Ya Allah...
Berapa lama lagi aku bisa bertahan sendiri, tanpa di dampingi, mengerti tanpa dimengerti..

Ya Allah,
Jika memang kebahagiaan yang akan kutuai bersamanya adalah salah, berikan aku jalan.
Dan jika memang benar, mohon mudahkanlah...
Keresahan hati tak terbendung lagi, yang ada saat ini hanya keikhlasan hati..
Ambil dia Ya Allah jika memang bukan untuk ku.. Berikan kebahagiaan untuknya, dan semoga segalanya mendapat yg terbaik.

Pintaku hanya satu, berikanlah perasaan lapang dada dan menerima semua keadaan yang ada. Berikan kesabaran dan keikhlasan hati. Aku percaya segala mukjizat Mu, segala rezeki yang akan Kau berikan kelak. Amien ya rabbal alamin.


Lebusa, 29th June 2011
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Tuhan...
Beri aku kantuk, aku tak bisa tidur.
Otakku tak berhenti memikirkannya
Jantung terus berdegup kencang setiap mengingatnya.
Mataku terus menatap huruf demi huruf, kata perkata dan kalimat pesannya.

Tuhan, hilangkanlah semua rasa.
Hapuskan bayangannya.
Tolong Tuhan, kumohon tolong hentikan..
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Kinahrejo Siang itu...

Sebuah karya dan narasi indah Om Dan..

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Tentang Kerinduan

Inikah jalan kesucian

memangku butiran airmata tasbih

saat hati mengambil keputusan dalam kebaikan

melukis kerinduan

membimbing penantian

menjaga tetesan demi tetesan wudhu

berlinang

tergenang

mengenang

sejuk tenang

do'a-do'a terucap lembut

dalam takbir rusuk merasuk

dalam sendi-sendi kalbu terpaut

sebuah cinta makna dalam sajadah

inilah impian istana

dikemegahan istana hati Mu

ajarilah kami

dalam goresan kaligrafi

merangkainya menjadi Asma'

dalam secawan embun ketenangan

memangku butiran airmata tasbih

disetiap kalimah Mu

penyatuan rusuk kalbu

terijab dalam rindu penantian

disisi airmata kalimah-kalimah bertasbih

 

Banda Aceh, 14 Januari 2011

Rusdiansyah Hutagalung (Serpihan hatiku)

 

 

Courtesy: http://fiksi.kompasiana.com/puisi/2011/01/15/tentang-kerinduan/

Waiting the Right Pilot

She's taking her time making up the reasons, to justify all the hurt inside. Guess she knows from the smiles and the look in their eyes. Everyone's got a theory about the bitter one. They're saying, Mama never loved her much and daddy never keeps in touch. That's why she shies away from human affection. But somewhere in a private place, she packs her bags for outer world, and now she's waiting for the right kind of pilot, to come..and save her.

And she'll say to him: "I would fly you to the moon, if you'll be my baby. I got a ticket for the universe where we belong, but if you would be my baby"

She can't remember a time, when she felt needed. If love was red then she was colour-blind. All her friends, they've been tried for reasons, and crimes that were never defined. She's saying : "Love is like a barren place.. and reaching out for human faith is.. Is like a journey I just don't have a map for." So baby gonna take a dive and push the shift to overdrive, send a signal that she's hanging all her hopes on the stars.

Dedicated to my future pilot

Review about Waiting for Forever movie

I will give myself the freedom to say that this movie captures the essence of what love is. It shows how people react to love in different ways. It shows a story about a stalker, But it's not like some weirdo, maniac, it's a lost guy scared and filled with fears, not knowing what to do, and how to do it, how to approach a girl that left him an impression from childhood.

Waiting for forever is a story about love, but it's not a typical love story. It's a Movie that at first glance you would say "Ooohh again the same old true love cliche". It not one of those, this movie surprised me. It has a strong emotional and fictional, idealistic side, but it's just made so real that it will drive you to tears in the first 10 minutes. It's a real life story. It kept me hanging to the end of every scene to see what will happen next.

I mostly liked the scenes. Everything was shown with pictures and the body language of the characters. Words aren't needed much, but there is also lot of narrative parts that made Waiting for forever leave a big impression to me.

The characters are very lovable, interesting and fun to watch. You will get yourself so much into the movie that one moment you will love them, and the next you will hate them and their behavior. You will see how many people are just so materialistic that they forgot about their family and the ones who love them, People who won't do anything that is out of the ordinary and change their behavior because they are busy workaholics.

I recommend "Waiting for Forever" because it leaves a big impression. A unique story with unique characters that would make you want more of it and leave you breathless and also filled with fresh air. A story that is out of the ordinary and different from Hollywood's love stories, who repeat all the same things.

So, grab from your DVD's store and enjoy the movie :)

Jika

Berhenti. Tak berbalik arah. Perlahan namun tetap melangkah. Jalanku hanya maju, tak ada mundur, tak ada berpaling. Hanya ke depan. Melihat yang ada di depan mata. Bergerak tanpa rasa gundah. Berpacu untuk masa bahagia. Ini jalanku, ini kisahku. Aku memilih dan aku menentukan.
Jika kau tak satu tujuan, maka tinggalkan.
Jika kita berbeda, carilah yang sama.
Aku benar-benar berhenti, sebelum kecewa atau mengecewakan.
Mungkin pilihanmu bukan aku, mungkin dia, atau yang lain.

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The Moment

If you ask me, there's a moment in everybody's life when you're helpess, just helpless with hope and trust. And then something happens, something too big to understand, and then everything changes forever.

If you ask me, you start out with goodness so pure and clear you don't even know its there because that's the way it is when you don't know anything, and then the news begin to arrive.

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Another Question

What would you say if he came to you one day, and he told you that in his dreams he sucks you into his lungs and at that point you go into his bloodstream?

But you're actually physically you are inside of his blood, inside his heart, the chambers and valves and such..
How would that make you feel?

And I just answer: oh.... *melting*
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Question

What is happening to me? I don't know I feel like I'm going crazy. I know when I said that everything was fine, but everything's not fine. Why does everything have to be so hard? You know, why can't it just be easy? I just have to keep on pretending and pretending and pretending just to keep myself from bawling my eyes out forever.
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God's Hand

I looked at your face and I saw that all the love had died

I saw that we had forgotten to take the time

I saw that you couldn't care less about what you do

Couldn't care less about the lies, you couldn't find the time to cry

We forgot about love..

We forgot about faith..

We forgot about trust..

and we forgot about us.

Now our love's floating out the window

Our love's floating out the back door

Our love's floating up in the sky in heaven

Where it began back in God's hands

You said that you had said all that you had to say

You said baby it's the end of the day

And we gave a lot but it wasn't enough

We got so tired that we just gave up

We didn't respect it

We went and neglected it

We didn't deserve it

But I never expected this

Sincerely yours,

-nyun-