Love urself perfectly

You don't have to be perfect. You don't have to have an unusual knowledge. And you don't have to be super pious. You only need to be decent. Be sincere. Be real. Be straight up. Don't be a fake. Don't be like you think you try to act pious on the outside but you know what really happens in the inside. Be the best person as you can be, do as much as you can.


Dedicated for my friend, oh well not again.... my ex-friend :)

waiting in lines

We spend half our life sleeping, but we spend our whole life waiting. Waiting in lines, waiting for times, waiting to be old enough, waiting for a call. We're always waiting. We just don't always realize it. Waiting for someone to say something, waiting for them to notice you. constantly waiting for that one person, and they have no idea you're waiting for them.

Difficult Decision

When you're standing on a line between giving up and seeing how much more you can take. It's like you think that if you wait a little longer, maybe things will eventually get better. But at the same time, you feel like you've already waited long enough and nothing has changed yet… and you just can't seem to take it in anymore, so you might as well give up. 

Overthinker

I hate it.
I make a big deal out of the most simplest things. Create problems within my own head. Get all worked up over nothing. I wish I could just stop overthinking things, its only making things worse than it actually is.
I need to learn how to stop overthinking the littlest things. And too bad still I can't help it.
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Sometimes you just need to distance yourself from people.
If they care, they'll notice.
If they don't, you know where you stand..
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A past letter

I wish I could tell you the things I never got the chance to. I wish I was with you now, to see you smile again. I wish we had more time but time goes by so fast. The moment comes and then the moment passes by in the blink of an eye.

And If I had one wish, i wouldn't ask for money, I wouldn't ask for fame, I wouldn't ask for the power to make this world change, If i could have one thing that one thing that I would chose is one more ordinary day with you,..


Sincerely,

Your past loved.
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What's Left

Watch my life, pass me by, in the rear view mirror, pictures frozen in time are becoming clearer. I don't wanna waste another day..
Stuck in the shadow of my mistakes

Cause I want you, and I feel you, crawling underneath my skin.. Like a hunger, like a burning, to find a place I've never been. Now I'm broken, and I'm faded, I'm half the girl that I thought I would be, but you can have what's left of me..

I've been dying inside, little by little, no where to go, but going out of my mind. In endless circles, running from my self until, you gave me a reason for standing still



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You're already My Number One

I don't mind if you hate Monday,
We can make this like a Saturday
And all the fuss and whine will over
As we drive in to the madness

With breakfast on the go
We'll dine on city lights
Didn't I tell you to just sit back
Cause my boy, they all don't matter any longer

Cause you don't even have to try
You're already my number one
I don't need the mellow tunes
And all the lines you've wasted over me

I don't mind if time goes too soon
We'll stay up all night an make it slower
And when the morning comes between us
We'll just get ready to start it over

Source : Number One - Adhitia Sofyan
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Realita dan Perasaan

Semakin hari yang aku jalani semakin semu dan abu-abu..
Entah ini nyata, atau beda dari realita, apa perasaan ini pasti dan memang terjadi
Kurasa Tuhan Maha Tahu apa yang terbaik untukku, apapun itu..
Dan kemudian Dia mengirimkan satu nama, hanya satu nama, yang wujudnya pun tak kunjung nyata..


Mengapa kami dipertemukan..
Mengapa kami saling kenal..
Mengapa rasa itu ada..
Apa ini hanya 'virtual feeling' atau benar-benar 'real feeling'


Pertanyaan ini yang selalu membelenggu.
namun tak ada yang bisa kulakukan, tak tahu apa yang harus kuperjuangkan.
benarkah dia ada, Tuhan?
benarkah yang sering kami bicarakan itu benar adanya, Tuhan?
benarkah perasaan ini, Tuhan?


Aku mengejar waktu,
Mengejar segala hal yang pasti, tanpa melihat ke belakang
Rasa ini masih abu-abu, selama kamu, aku, kita belum bertemu.

All about move on

I'm twisted cause one side of me tellin' me that I need to move on, on the other side I wanna break down and cry. God blessed me with the patience to stay and the strength to move on.


Meet someone - get attached - get hurt - move on - meet someone - get attached -get hurt - move on.... 
What a cycle, rite...?! But things change and you can't sit around and mope about it. Its best to just move on and to forget.


But why everyone keep asking me the same question? Who's your boyfriend now? So, is it really important that we have another boyfriend/girlfriend make a prove that we've already move on? So I thought moving on is a sweet process of proving to others especially to yourself that you're off better without that person.

La reconnaissance de l'autonomie :)

Bonjour vous, j'ai attendu pour vos appels, espérons que tout va bien se passer. Vous savez quoi, je pense avoir le béguin pour toi.. :)

Last Message from Our best friend Alicia Conways

Everyone that you know and that you think you have in your life today, will be gone one day. Maybe not tomorrow and maybe not next year. It might happen without you noticing.

But all those people, that you think will be there or that you think you can always come back to, they'll be gone. I don't think enough people realize this. People try to predict the future to some extent, try to shape it and mold it, trying to control some aspect to better fit the way their lives are at the moment — as if they even have the ability — and they put people off. They say no, or not now, or that the time isn't right. They deny themselves and they pass up opportunities, thinking the person will still be there later on.

Well, maybe you'll get lucky and they will be. But chances are they won't. All you have and all you have control over is right now and the only people you have in your life are the ones you have right now. So you can plan all you want. But once you realize that everyone you know will one day be gone, you'll do things differently. That, or you'll wake up one day wishing you had, but it'll be too damn late

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We miss you, Ally.. Please wake up, and back on the track.. We really :3 u
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Bingung

Bingung, mau nulis apaan..
Udah gitu aja sih :)

Someday this story is extra-special for us!

Will we last as lovers? Or better off as friends?
But see… that’s the beauty of it all.
The not knowing part. Just free falling.
Where it all lands? We’ll never know.
Just believe that somehow that’s where you are supposed to be.
Yang terbaik toh belum tentu yang terindah..
So they say, rite?!



to my dear futur(e)istic lover

Life is Messy

At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing, where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, is usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we’ve chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them, the people that are still with you at the end of the day - those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need.

At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don’t keep other people out. They fence you in. Life is messy. That’s how we’re made. So, you can waste your lives drawing lines. Or you can live your life crossing them. But there are some lines… that are way too dangerous to cross. Here’s what I know. If you’re willing to throw caution to the wind and take a chance, the view from the other side is spectacular.

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23 hari,  3 jam, 20 menit yang lalu..

Hari itu, ya hari itu entah mengapa sangat pilu.
Ketika hati mulai resah,
Ketika merindukan seseorang yang jauh disana, sangat amat.
Ketika sayang mulai tumbuh menjadi cinta.
Ketika keyakinan berubah menjadi harapan.
ketika harapan menjadi tujuan.
Ketika otak, pikiran, hati dan ego melebur jadi satu.
Ketika logika tak sejalan.
Ketika rasa yang ada di kamu telah hilang, entah karena hampa atau waktu yang berjalan.

Rasa sayang ini terlalu sayang untuk dibuang,
Mimpi indah ini terlalu indah untuk dimusnahkan.
Ego, emosi, dan benci adalah musuh terbesar kami.
Tapi kamu tetap ingin berhenti, entah sejenak, entah selamanya.

Masih teringatkah luka yang kau torehkan saat indahnya Juni itu?
Masih teringatkah rasa sakit yang kau beri?
Masih teringatkah pedih yang kau tuai?
Dan kini, aku kembali merasakannya. Entah hanya sesaat, atau selamanya.

Air mataku sudah kering, sayang..
Air mataku sudah habis karena mu.
Air mataku sudah tak bisa merasakan rasa pahit atau getirnya hidup.

Sayang,
bila suatu saat kau membaca tulisan ini, semoga saat itu isi hatimu sudah tergantikan yang lain..
semoga saat itu hatiku benar-benar kuat melepasmu..
semoga saat itu perasaanku telah lebur ditelan waktu..
semoga saat itu semua rasa telah lenyap..
dan semoga saat itu Tuhan betul-betul memberikan jawaban segala pertanyaanku, kamu, dan kita..

Doa ku selalu ada dalam setiap hembusan nafasku..
Nama mu selalu terselip di dalam tutur doaku..
Jangan pernah kau sakiti lagi perasaan yang seperti ini,
Terlalu luka untuk dirasakan..
Terlalu pedih untuk diingat..


Untuk  seseorang yang 8 tahun ku kenal,
selama 3 tahun mengisi pikiranku,
selama 2 tahun menemani di dalam ruang hati,
selama 14 bulan memberikan cinta yang luar biasa indahnya